Picture fighting for your life
You are terrified
You gasp for more breath
Fear. Panic. Confusion.
Yet, with every gasp of air you take, you hope it will not be your last.
But you feel weakened, having given your best fight,
You are surrounded as if by water,
Pulled down by its weight
Flooding your lungs,
Your heartbeat a ticking time bomb
Thumping in your ears.
Drowning scars the mind and soul.
Drowning is not only a physical accident,
It’s an overwhelming breaking point, emotional and mental trauma.
Drowning in your mind with thoughts and frustrations of your own lack of courage,
The sensation of drowning is losing control, losing the ability to perform at full potential.
You are losing control of your commitments, desires, relationships, even yourself.
Picture being aware of losing control
Becoming overwhelmed with your life.
The path you’ve walked so far.
The life you’ve cherished every day.
But you’ve met obstacles you can’t overcome;
You feel the desire, the potential to overcome the challenge–at first.
But you feel like you can’t.
The challenge is too demanding and difficult,
It’s too much for you.
That although it feels like too much
You won’t give in
You’ll be able to control yourself; you’ll be able to balance.
But eventually, you begin to lose control,
Hope becomes an illusion,
Determination to remain balanced isn’t a priority anymore.
Becoming unbalanced certainly damages you, more mentally than emotionally.
Having overwhelming days,
Feeling pushed down, weak, helpless.
Picture yourself drowning
Fearful. Cowering. Lost.
Unbalanced in your life.
Overwhelming yourself with negative discouragement
Drowning your capability of controlling balance, enforcing courage
Many feel as if they’re drowning daily.
A response of survival or defeat is your only choice now.
Drowning is terrifying, horrific.
Acknowledge your value and potential,
Create strength and desire to survive.
Giving up seems easy, but could never amount to the potential you are.
I have felt day today as if I were drowning,
I have been lost in how to even gasp for a little guidance to survive.
Fortunately, I know my value as a person.
I know I can survive.
I will survive.
Recognizing my potential and value will never allow me to give up.